hellooo
well i nv update my blog cos i am too sick to do tat..
lol.. well actually lazy too...
i am down with flu and slight fever plus headache...
Running nose is killing me...
anw ystd was damn busy..
went to work early i the morning den after tat rush to sec sch for meeting..
den after tat home..
and i was sick!! omg... damn tired..
but after meeting him i felt much better..
so anw today i went to meet ck for lunch..
long time nv see him..
after we ate out lunch we went to eat anderson ice cream..
there are some pix i will upload when i gt mood. lol..
den after tat came home and slack..
going out real soon to meet my darling jiale..
ton over at her hse to pei her play some scary game.. haha..
well nth much actually.. ^^
jus hope tat i recover real soon.. hahah


fuck shit...
jus when i stopped crying my mama came in
she say
"why so xiao qi.. he say u abit only.. he still ur elder brother wat...
u know he like to show off infront of gf.. let him say lor.."
den i was like
"he no rights to say me.. he is worse off then me..
if is papa say i LAN LAN let him say....but is useless brother say me.."
den my mama say
"don say too much infront of ur brother gf...later she scared don dare come again..
jus let ur brother say"
WTH..
now my brother gf is more impt den me la.. ok i get it...
wat more can i say.. i have a wonderful family..


Fuck my brother...
he is not in the fucking position to fucking critise me...
he shld refect on himself before he come and say abt me...
had he set a good role model for me to follow in the first place??
HELL NO!!!!

How the hell u expect me to work for the fucking one week holiday...
u think one month ar... KNS...
den nvm... still say "nv work nvm.. still everyday at home nv go out do sports or say hang out
with frenx.."
this one i cannot tahan i say back
"u think my family so good allow me go out everyday mehx..
u think i guy mehx..."
den he shut up...
plz la.. if he so smart can say i am useless or wat and say i shld get a job den
why when he was my age he did not did all those himself...
den when i say this to him he tell me...
"talking abt now nt the past"
FUCK OFF LA... u urself last time like tat u wanna come say me...
who is the one who don study end up failing his Os
and nt wantin to go ITE ask my parents to let him retake Os..
and my parents took out A fucking huge sum of money for him to retake..
and guess wat.. GOES TO THE DRAIN.. he even did worse..
WTH... and because he nv did well in his damn studies...
i get nagged and nagged by parents to study
my papa will say
"u better study well don be like ur brother disappoint me again,
if not i will really leave the hse.."
and all this stress on me i tried and tried and did well in my Os...
now to poly it continues....
and more things to say...

after he fail his Os for second time..
he SLACK AND PLAY LIKE MAD.. for dono how many months and nt finding a job..
till he go NS.. and when NS come out.. STilllll not finding...
till at last no money den go find...SEE HOW GREAT MY BROTHER IS...
such a ROle model indeed HUH!!!~~~~
now who has the right to say who...

my brother is jus a useless guy
who work at rip curl now..
with a gf and he acting as the Maid of the gf
taking her handbags and stuff...
is as if no gf he will die...
and he have the right to tell me off??? HELLO NOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYY...

best of all..
guess wat my parents are doing when all these is going on...
walking ard and pretending nth is happen.. SMART AR...
so much of me as their daughter... CLAP CLAP...
havin parents is like don have lor...
they think i don wanna work and help the family mehx..
for their info i finding a part time job for me after sch...
it is nt easy.. i end sch at ard 5.. where to find such job...
WA KAO EH.... dono wat to say abt my family la...


hey...
ermmm fast post here..
nth much today..
woke up 11 plus den slack till ard 5pm den go out..
went to find my biao sao...
supposingly she using me as her model for her hair styling lessons..
well her lessons was cancelled so we went makan den after tat while waiting for cousin
to come and fetch us.. she tie my hair lor..
was quite nice la.. den after tat pei cousin and aunty eat den sent me home..
nth much lor..
but tml is gonna be busy for me.. meeting yp at 12.30
den fast fast eat lunch.. den discuss for prom thing..
den might have to run place to check price...
so much to do so little time... @_@
tats abt all la.. nth much...

oo ya i realise tat i am so irritated by my aunty..
but well she is my aunty after all.. so REN REN REN !!! TAHAN TAHAN TAHAN!!!
it is jus funny to see how my biao sao complain abt my aunty
and my aunty complainin abt biao sao to me.. Being in between is real funny to see...
well cant be bothered...

oo ya i have some random stuff to say again..
i jus came to realise tat nowadays lots of guys are askin ppl for sex
or watever shit online..
well tat is ultra lame and disgusting...
u jus added someone and first thing u ask is for sex.. WTH.. typical..
anw i guess nowadays it is hard to find virgin guys..
weird thing is.. guys will wan2 find a wife tat is virgin..
but funny thing is... guys are the one who cause the girls to be non virgin
when they are fooling ard and when they are getting married they wan a virgin wife..
so lame can... they shld reflect tat they actually make someone's wife a non virgin as well..
so why they complain so much.. @_@
guys will be guys man..
oo ya.. if u guys think that u are wat i mentioned above den jus do me a favour..
stay far away from me.. don even think abt making frens with me..
cos i guess u can find ur needs from other desperate ppl and nt me...
i can say i am very traditional kind.. so ya i will appreciate it alot if u guys jus leave..
^^


HEY HEY..
wohooo~~~
today went prawning with wei jie and ivan...
we went to The Village next to the bird park...
at first we very disappointed in ourself ar.. cos for like 1 hr only caught 2.. =.=
damn pathetic..








i jus wan to feel loved..
i jus need someone who really understands me..
a person who notice everything abt me.. even things who are nt impt and nt obvious..
a person who will make me smile when i am down..
a person who knows my situation at home tat is me nt being allowed to go out often..
a person who can tolerate my stubborness
a person who can lame with me
a person who can watch horror movie with me and stand my screaming...
most impt factor..
FILLIAL... a person who is respectful...
who treat kin ship and fren ship very impt...
reason being... my realatives and frenx are real impt to me..
and also being 100% honest towards me..
i rather he tell me wat he did bad in his past rather den keeping me in suspense...
this is the impt things i look at..


yo...
ok i am bored.. so i came to blog..
this will be a post that make no sense.. cos i jus wanna type out wat is in my mind..
so here it goes..
OO YA.. anw i will be typing in chinese so sry for those who don understand... :(

我总觉得我的家人还把我当小孩看待。
我已经是18岁的人了，他们还把我当12岁的人看待。。
为什么他们那么的不了解我。。
他们都认为我是跟街上的ahlian。有着幼稚的思想。。
不过我真的长大了。。为什么他们就是不明白呢？？
我到了这个年龄时会需要稍微一点点的自由。。不过他们不了解。。
有时候我会想，我的家是家吗？
妈妈一直以来都设不是很喜欢我，因为我是女的。。
他对我和对哥哥的态度非常的不一样。。
你们能想象每天面对着妈妈不过只感受到冷漠。。
而且，一眼看过去就能看到妈妈对哥哥的态度是360度的不一样。。
心里的痛是说不出来的，不过我从来没有埋怨。
我只是觉得我很象不家里的一份子。。不过我也习惯了。。
well this is jus smth in my mind..


wa DAMN SIANNNNNN!!!

now is like 1 plus AM.. i still nt slping sia..
damn bored...
anw was damn pissed jus now..
i wonder how some ppl call their frenx as frenx when they are actually not their frenx...
damn lame right.. dono for wat also sia..
well anw i am used to it.. hahahah...

wa kao really cant get to slp sia...
anw i gt nth to blog lehx..
jus come here vent out abit of anger.. hehehehhe..

anw have i told u guys the story of three wells??
ok here it goes...
well well well...
FINISHED... HAHAHAHAH ok this is nt funny at all is damn lame..
i get it during first sem from daphne.. hahah..
sry arhhh damn sian so talk crap :P
ok la byeeeee


YYOOO!!~~~
well i am damn bored at my aunty hse now..
so came to blog..
just now i say i went ot eat with my family and da sao..
we ate Crystal Jade to eat...
i ate sour spicy noodle... damn nice.. but dono why jus did not really enjoy..
i realise my mood nt as good these few days.. like sian sian lehx..
but anw after tat send my brother and da sao off to westmall..
they wanted to watch house bunny but end up timing too late...
so they went home and me and parents come my aunty hse at batok lor..

came here wanted to transfer the zoo pictures but cousin went overseas...
so sian lor..den parents and my aunty and uncle went to eat dinner..
i stayed at aunty hse and SLP.. damn tired..
due to brother disturbing my slp in the morning.. so i slept for an hour..
den now blogging lor...
well now all i can do is to blog since i am damn bored..
and also for the first time almost the whole day i did nt bother abt my hp..
is like i kinda forget i have a hp.. =.=
until i sense tat someone sms me.. so i went to check and as usual i was right..
HAHAHAH...

OO YA...
forget to mention..
today was the first time after so long that me and my family went out....
i kinda miss clinging on to my papa whenever we are outside..
i will jus hook his arms and rest my head on his shoulder or his arms while walking.. i jus feel tat i am very attached to my papa..

i also realise that my brother is kinda useless..
cos i can see that he is a very GF type of guy..
meaning he stick to gf like super glue kind...
From last time his ex gf we can already see that...
he actually help his gf to carry handbag -.-
ok honestly,
me myself thinks tat guy helping gal carry handbag is damn GAY!!!!
i myself wont allow my bf to carry my handbag.. that is if i hav a bf...
i think that help carry sling bag or other unisex thing still ok..
even my papa think tat he very no use..anw who cares..
non of my buisness.. hahahha...^^
ok la i nth to say le..
i ZHAO LIAO.. lol
TAKE CARE PEEPS


HEY!

Today is the start of my holiday man... hahaha..
guess wat...
ystd i slp at ard 1am..
den i woke up at like 11 plus..
by my stupid brother... he was disturbing me.. playing stupid songs on his psp..
den put it at my ear..
reason for him disturbing me is because
there is construction upstairs and it woke him up so he cant slp and he decided not to let me slp...
wat a NICE brother eh!!??

anw i woke up saw the sms and it was wat i expected.. haha
so i woke up with good mood..
start my sweeping and mopping..
now my hands hurt a little but after awhile jiu ok le..
i jus manage to edit the proposal that yp had send me...
well i guess it was difficult for us to really get together and then discuss
cos we have different sch time now..
but well still thanx Yp for helping me so much despite so busy...

ok now i gt nth to do.. rot at home..
brother gonna eat with da sao cos is his BD..
well i think i have to eat maggie.. SOBBB..
no one at home.. hahahaha..
eat my favourite KOREAN KIMCHI NOODLEs.. WOHOOO.. nice...
or rather i shld call my parents see where are they.. hahah...
YESH!!! my parents coming back le gonna bring me go makan.. WOHOO >.<
papa gonna treat us eat to celebrate brother BD.. WOHOOOOOO YEAH..
GOOD FOOD!!!! excited sia.. ahhahahah

i understand... no need to apologise...
u ought to slp anw...sunday will come jus like tml.. ^^





hey hey..
jus came back home..
went to css for the tickets thingy and i saw my sweetie juniors...
gave them some encouragement for Os...
All the best to them.. but i think they can do well.. all so smart.. ^^

Anw after parents came to fetch me den went dinner..
but nv eat much cos no appetite... @_@
den somehow my six sense tell me someone will talk to me online..
so jus nice i came back online den i saw the offline message..
i was damn shocked.. i was right.. my sense was right.. LOL damn cool..
well was glad that he is fine.. ^^

well i am dead tired i can slp like NOW!!! jus shut my eyes and i can instantly slp.. LOLLL
damn damn tired.. ystd stayed up till 12 plus 1.. cant really slp well also..
den morning 6am wake up.. @_@ wa kao my beauty slp become ugly lor.. LOLLL =.=
ok la i knw is lame... well anw i lost my cookie monster keychain..
den i bought another one which the face is even more retarded lookin but no body la..
but is damn reatarded face.. HAHAHAHAHAHA...
now it is really PU---------KI monster !!!! hahahahahhahahahhahaha
inside joke.. but i think quite obvious u all can understand.. =.=
now u all mus be having the diao face right??? =.=
den now mus be smilling.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA >.<
this one also inside joke.. :P

Anw tats wat happen today ba...
OOO YAAAAA...
the movie "Oh baby" MUS WATCH... the dance is nice...
then the story also sad.. i cry when watchin lor... T^T
shiok sia watever wanna cry jus cry out HAHAHAHHAHA....
oo ya today gt pic taken with my babes...
when i get it i post.. WOHOOO...
BYE PEEPS....


yo peeps..

well well well..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
errrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!
actually i dono what to say... LOL..
today i have to go back to commonwealth secondary to distribute the prom night tickets..
now my life is basically quite packed..
so little time but yet so much to do...

i have my studies
my frenx
my family
css prom night thingy
jogging
personal thinkings..
OF COS MY BEAUTY SLP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WA LAO NOT ENOUGH TIMEEEEEEEE!!!!!~~~~~

nowadays i am so into instrumental songs..
and slow songs...
i am in love with The song gibby send me..
also "Breathe easy" by blue...
"Always" by Bon jovi..
"Happy ending" by Mika
OMG their voice is nice.....!!!!
I also like one song "Is it you" by cassie... OMG so catchy i like..
listen le feel like dancing
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH.... damn nice damn nice.. i like...
well i dono why i am so into these songs.. LOL
It's a secret.. >.<

anw i manage to talk to my malaysian cousin online..
finally their house can online...
well this way i can check on how they are doing over there..
best thing.. i can check on my uncle more easily.. YESH!!!
yeah happy happy...

oo ya ystd went out with my da sao..
we had a great outing..
went to eat pizza hut for dinner den talk talk talk about my brother and my family..
well she asked abt me too and i told her too..
glad she understands... i <3 her... hahhaha
after finish dinner went to find my brother..
den he went back with me den he also ask..
den i told him also..
den he nag nag nag explain explain..
but well wat he say is reasonable la..
but he knows wat i mean.. so ya... conclusion ~~~ err no conclusion.. HAHAHA :P

ANWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..
i am a happy person now.. or rather always.. @_@
hahaha.. ok la nth much la.. hahha.. i now nth in mind..
so BYE PEEPS...


Hey...
well suddenly got the mod to blog..
i am now listening to the instrumental song merry christmas Mr lawrence..
this song is MY DEAR GIBBY SEND ME DE..... CREDITS TO HIM... i nv practice Plagiarism...
it is like damn damn damn nice can....
well listen le will emo de sia....

well currently my mind is drifting towards malaysia...
now whatever is in my mind is my uncle who is sick over there..
the situation is just like one of my uncle who passed away when i am still a child..
i will forever not be able to forget that face right infront of me and not responding to me..
i might be still damn young at that point of time but somehow i feel the pain..
maybe reason is cause i have mature thinking?
now i am damn afraid of the same situation being repeated..
now i am more afraid that i will not be able to be there if anything happen..
because now even if i gt holiday there willnot be any transport for me to go over...
i wont want anything to happen to him..
i am like praying every night..
千万不要让任何事发生在他身上。。


Well...
since i don have the mood to slp or do anything much..
here i am jus talking rubbish..

so far i am starting to bond very well with my sem two class E35F..
but it does nt mean i forget my sem 1 classmates..
my forever favourite POWER RANGERS...
I am real sry that i am always nt being able to meet u gals..

Anw forget to mention ystd went to makan dinner with ivan..
he treat me eat...
so long nv catch up with him le..
well i updated him on wat had happen to me and all.. and we talked quite alot..
i can see he is sort of tryin to cheer me up with his lame jokes..
thanx alot.. i appreciate it..^^
anw i jus know tat ivan is pro at rearing fish man... !! HAHAHAH :P
oo ya when we reach Je from the inside of the mrt door we can see ppl crowding the exit..
we were wondering wth is wrong with them man...
as if they cant get in... TYPICAL LOR!!!
and we also realise RP really teaches us well UH!!! HOR IVAN!!~~ hahahahahahahah

oo ya almost forgot..
thanx to all those who were there for me and still with me now..
<3 u all !!!!!!




haiz..
wat exactly am i thinking abt..
staring into blank spaces whenever i have the chance to..
and it make my mind wonder off and think of who knows wat man..
i know u ppl can see tat i am present in class or where ever.. but my soul is like nt there..
well i can sense tat i am nt so noisy these few days too..
all i can say is time will heal it all i guess..


ok la peeps i go slp le..
TAKE CARE
















hey hey...
today is monday...
sianxxx monday blues... always... @_@
well for those who knows wat happen will know i will face more then jus monday blues... hahah..

ANW...
sunday went to ZOO!!!!!!!!!
ya i know some of u will say WAT!!??? AGAIN!!!!
hahah cannot blame la..
my cousin can get free admission plus my another cousin love photography...
so he will go there take pictures of the animals...
to be true i am interested in photography jus tat no time and also no $$$ to go with my interest..
I JUS LOVE MY COUSIN.. he knows i love to take photos and i don have a camera..
he is kind enough to lend me his sony digital camera for the day to take pix...
damn shiok...
well i guess the zoo outing distracted my thoughts quite alot..
i jus love animals and the nature...

BUT..
we walk walk walk den RAIN CATS AND DOGS...
basket lor..den hide under shelter sit there like idiot for like almost one hour plus i think..
den my mama and aunty each sit beside me den talk about BGR @_@
den i was like OMG WTH... but anw nth to hide..
den we 3 ladies talk talk talk.. wa kao make me feel so OLD CAN!!~~~
like gt common topic with them.. hahah...
but was great la.. seldom get to talk to them much..
after rain stop we walk again lor..
not to mention first stop is my favourite WHITE TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
moreover it is their feeding time DAMN HANDSOME!!!! hahahahahahhahah :P
but the pix is still at my cousin camera.. mus wait for him to be free den send me.. sian...
mean time...

TAKE CARE PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^







Hey hey...
ok i know i have not upfate in like millions years...
ahahha...
always using the same reason..
cos nth much to say..
every is jus sch sch sch and sch..
but ok la sch is getting better each day i guess..

E35F is starting to get more bonded together..
But i guess sch will still be sch.. bored.. hahaha..
anw i shall use pictures to do all the talking..
hahahah...

anw i can only rmb today whereby i went makan seafood
at turf club with my cousin family and my family..
my dear cousin treated us to makan... end up we ate till 484 plus plus...
hahhahha.. DAMN SHIOK AND NICE!!!!!!

err other days wat i did i forget all about it.. haha suddenly wan me to think
very difficult.. so i shall upload pix later.. ^^

TATA EVERYONE...