ok i know my blog is like dead dono how long le..
now i am gonna post...'

well we broke up le...long time le...
and he hav a new gf le..
well i bless them lor..

these are jus things i had been thinking.....
all the memories..

u wan me to think positive tat love does nt hurt..
u make me believe in it..
and now u spoil it..
u told me tat we gonna get married jus like wat i dream of...
u told me u wanna be in the flyer wif me when it's done wif construction...
u told me u wanna be wif me forever...
u told me u love me forever...
u told me u cant live without me...
u told me u cant find a better girl then me...

ALL these u told me...
and ALL these is LIES...
wats forever? nth is forever...

how can u jus leave me here alone thinking of all these..
while u jus let go easily and find a new memory..
how u wann me to forget all these..
4 months of memories...
how can u be so ruthless...
i wanna hate u.. but i cant bring myself to do tat..
wanna slap u.. i cant do it..
i cant even scold u....
why is all these things happenin..
i think i jus cant get over u?
but i HAV to...

i am at fault..
I NEGLECTED U..
I TURN COLD TOWARDS U...
I CHANGED IN ALL WAYS..
ALL MY FAULT
ALL I ADMIT..
ALL MY DOING..
ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL ALL MY FAULT........

there is lots of things i haven tell u..
there is lots of things i haven had the chance to share wif u..
there is lots of places i haven get the chance to go wif u...
i haven got the chance to say I LOVE U a thousand times....
but there is not even 0.001% of chance now..

now all i can do is hiding in one corner...
lookin at u doing and sayin all the things u said to me last time..
it hurts me deeply
but nth can be done..
giv me time.. all i need now is time..
few months??
nop.. one year?? maybe...
i dono how long..
but this scar is nv gonna heal.. its forever there... deeply cut....

now i guess i will be the one who is gonna do stupid things rather then u..
i had nv done any of them.. but i think its time to start..
cutting?? drinking?? smokking?? watever i can think of i guess...