HE IS GONE... GO MALAYSIA LIAO....

i thought tat day is the last time i meeting him...
but ystd we meet up again...
actually i don wannna go one.... cos i scared i cannot bare to leave lor...
but in the end my sis YP say i should go.. cos he will wish to see me b4 he go off de...
and if i don go he will be disappointed.. so i went lor...
and in the afternoon i rush for his so call present lor...and i gave it to him...
I and YP went JE meet HIM and farhan to order cake for tat lao lao lor...
then went home le... he ask me if wanna send me home i said no....
cos i sure cannot tahan and cry one lor....
so he pei me wait for bus.. when finally i turn my back and walk off....
the feelin is jus painful... i can see from his eyes he wanted to cry le...
then he sms me and told me he cried when he saw the thing i gave him...
i guess if i were him i will cry too cos i really use my heart and soul to sew the thing for him...


today... i woke up at 5.30 jus to wake him up...
when i talked to him on the phone i nearly cried but i control...
after i hang down the phone i jus break down.. and i really mean break down..
the tears like running tap lor... i also dono why it is jus so pain la....
although it is only 3 days but i dono why lehx... i told myself don cry...
and i also thought tat i wont cry... but i was wrong...
when i went to bed i kept thinking of lots of things i am HIM did or had together..
tears jus kept rolling down... and i guess i cried myself to bed....

To HIM...
although u are nt here but this is wat i feel now..
i feel tat smth is missing...
there is no use lookin at my phone...
or rather i jus don wanna look at it...
it reminds me of u...
knowing u cry... make me heartache...
cos to me... normally a guy cry is cos he really sad or heart pain de...
and i guess i cant keep the promise... cos i cried...sry...
but according to my character i am fine... i will still be siao siao one...
i very positive de.. 3 days nia.. ^^ i wait...
love ya muacks...